and the story goes...

:'

2012-01-25T09:08:00.000-08:00

"...I'm lost without you.

can't help myself........."

~

2012-01-23T09:38:00.000-08:00

don't you know how does it feel to hold the tears?

don't you know how hard it is to pretend that everything is alright?

don't you know how sick i am wondering if you really leave?

a letter to say

2012-01-23T08:56:00.000-08:00

so dear, it's about 3 years and going to 4 we're together.

i know i'd been a real bastard to waste you,

to waste things around us,

to waste the love between us.

i know it will going to be end someday.

but i never want to be end like this.

you just a type of boy that i can't life without.

and look at us now, we're apart.

i'm sorry.

i know it's not enough.

i'm searching for something more than saying sorry.

if it's can make you be fine.

for every pray that there's you in it.

for every night i say it to God.

for every love that we shared.

for every memories that we have.

i'm sure it's not a thing that we easily forget.

together we lives,

we lived,

we loved.

love you, dearest.

for the dearest, RMKG

2012-01-21T19:52:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry

really sorry

though that i have so much wrong to you

i know it's a big problem of me

to can't keep myself from anyone else

but i know i have to grow up

and i want to grow up with you

just don't leave

we can start again from zero

with new me and new you

just the two of us

for this time, i promise.

just another script, i guess

2012-01-12T10:09:00.000-08:00

                              SUMMER
                    This thing. This whatever it is.
                    You and me. Do you think this is

                    normal?
          
                              TOM                    I don't know. Who cares about
                    normal?! I'm happy. Aren't you
                    happy?
          
                                                                                        SUMMER                    You're happy?
                                        TOM                    You're not?

- 500 days of Summer

Malang Kuliner - 1

2011-10-19T03:57:00.000-07:00

Jadi, disinilah tempat tujuan jalan-jalan sore saya hari ini,

"Toko Oen"

Jalan-jalan saya hari ini itu acara mendadak, tiba-tiba diajak Raden Mochammad Kharish Ghazy keliling Malang. Dia bilang ada toko es krim enak yang masih kaya jaman dulu. Dan dibawa lah saya kesini.

Pertama kali sampe parkiran, ada yg bikin saya tertarik. Ucapan selamat datang yang seperti ini.

Sayang saya ga bawa kamera - ini hasil saya ngesearch di internet -_-

Toko Oen es krimnya enak. Yaa mirip mirip lah sama Ragusa di Jakarta. Sama sama nuansa tempo doloe. Dan kata Pak Raden saya ini yg udah duluan kesini ada pelayan yg bisa ngomong bahasa Belanda juga. Sayang waktu saya kesini, pelayan yg itu gaada.

Ohiya, ini loh partner jalan-jalan saya :)

Sampai jumpa di kuliner selanjutnya :)

Ik hou van je

:$

2011-10-13T02:10:00.000-07:00

I want to snuggle up with you and watch movies and snuggle and eat popcorn and did i mention the snuggling?

The Serenity Prayer

2011-09-24T21:45:00.000-07:00

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace,
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it,
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will,
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

To do this thing is all what i need now

2011-09-24T05:41:00.000-07:00

should i take the string off, so i can just jump without come back?

bungee jumping is an activity that involves jumping from a tall structure while connected to a large elastic cord. The tall structure is usually a fixed object, such as a building, bridge or crane; but it is also possible to jump from a movable object, such as a hot-air-balloon or helicopter, that has the ability to hover above the ground. The thrill comes as much from the free-falling as from the rebounds.

here i come, Malang

2011-08-09T02:21:00.000-07:00

I'm going with a flight, tomorrow. To Malang. Place where i will spend my next 4 years. Going to college and do the college stuff.
Gonna stay there just for 10 days and then i'll back to Jakarta.
Mind to wait?

xoxo, m

August, 2 2011

2011-08-09T02:20:00.000-07:00

"Kasarnya udah mentok"

"Tapi menurut gue, perjalanan kita masih panjang Nda"

"Kita belom mentok :')"

"Gue tau perjalanan kita masih panjang dan kita belom mentok..."

"Tapi buat gue, dunia gue sekarang dia. Tempat gue balik ya dia"

"Yaa kenyataan emang ga selalu nyenengin kan Fat"

even the picture knows

2011-08-09T01:46:00.000-07:00

that is not always nice

2011-08-08T03:24:00.000-07:00

When you grow up, your best friends become your worst enemies.
Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Cellphones are used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Underwear turns into thongs. Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet not wearing a condom? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? When dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings, race issues were about who ran the fastest? War was only a card game, the only drug you knew was cough medicine, and wearing a skirt didn't make you a whore? The only things that hurt you were skinned knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
The only drama you knew of was Romeo and Juliet? The only thing you could cheat in was games, and players were only for sports not relationships? The only way we could change was with clothes and not ourselves.
Yet we absolutely couldn't wait to grow up.

- Unknown

love struck

2011-07-29T22:03:00.000-07:00

today, 11:56 am

my heart just skip a beat. he's less than one meter around me. i love his smell. and his face when he sleep.

ah i've told you, heart, to not keep falling back.

classic but..... :')

2011-07-26T10:09:00.000-07:00

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley, How to Love a Woman

Dan disinilah pilihan saya...

2011-07-26T08:15:00.000-07:00

Bapak, Inda lulus :')

alhamdulillah :')

2011-07-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah. Satu keinginan mama udah terwujud. Sastra Inggris Universitas Padjajaran. Tinggal keinginan bapak yg belum. Teknik Elektro Universitas Brawijaya. Bismillah semoga diterima. Amin. Terimakasih ya Allah. :')

no offense

2011-07-10T22:06:00.000-07:00

Saya. Kangen. Rambut. Panjang. Saya

Surprise! Surprise!

2011-07-10T21:41:00.000-07:00

Jadi sedari malem kemaren itu saya kepikiran satu hal. Surprise! Entah kenapa saya lagi pengen banget di surprise-in orang. Hahaha emang sih kesannya ngarep banget. Ah tapi emang pengen banget ko hahaha.

Surprisenya jadi gini...

"Ada orang yg udah lama gapernah ketemu saya dan jelas jelas saya pengen banget ketemu dia karna harus menyelesaikan sesuatu tiba tiba dateng ke rumah saya pagi pagi. Dateng aja gitu gaada angin gaada ujan dan gaada pemberitahuan apalagi konfirmasi sebelumnya. Untung aja saya di rumah, kalo engga?

Dia dateng, jam 7 pagi. Oke kenapa jam 7 pagi? Karna saya tau persis ini orang bangunnya siang. Dia anak kelelawar kalo malem nyari makan kalo siang tidur di kamar. Jadi saya pilih jam 7 pagi biar kesannya kan dia usaha banget gitu surprise-in saya hehehe

Dia dateng saya masih bobo bobo cantik di kamar. Dia bilang sama mama saya yang notabene lebih kangen dia daripada saya anaknya sendiri buat naik ke atas ke kamar bangunin saya. Pintu kamar saya dikunci, dia gedor gedor pintu kamar. "tok tok tok". Dan saya yang kalo lagi tidur gampang banget kebangunnya pun bangun. Masih muka bantal rambut berantakan cuma pake kaos gombrong yg kemaren saya minta dia kasih saya sama celana pendek yg ga keliatan karna saking panjangnya itu kaos - atau saya yg terlalu mini - bukain pintu kamar yg dikunci.

Dan yg terjadi selanjutnya adalah... Saya buka pintu dalam keadaan mata saya masih sipit dan kabur buat ngeliat dan ada badan gede di depan saya. Kaget? Jelas lah. Apalagi waktu dia nyodorin sebuket mawar putih buat saya... Aaaaa rasanya kaya ada kupu-kupu di perut saya. Stomach butterfly. Yaa perasaan semacam itulah.

Dan sejam kemudian saya udah mandi udah rapi udah wangi dan siap pergi. Akhirnya saya bisa ngambil hadiah saya. Iya, seharian sama orang ini. Jalan-jalan keliling Jakarta. Museum. Dan ada lagi keinginan terbaru saya nonton teater laskar pelangi, sama kamu. Hahaha what a day!"

P.S: Sumpah ini cerita cuma karangan saya. Jadi bukan kejadian sebenernya. Mungkin akan kejadian atau mungkin engga sama sekali. Saya cuma wonder aja kalo one day bakal ada kejadian kaya gini. Pengen banget hahaha.

is it weird, bear?

2011-07-09T21:58:00.000-07:00

"And i just don't know why i always back to you.

I'm running to another guy,

but in the end there's always you that i'm looking for"

bgdsgsilurtyiuhgd

2011-07-09T21:02:00.000-07:00

Saya cuma pengen kamu jaga perasaan saya

Terlepas dari masih atau tidaknya kamu sayang saya

Dan kalaupun masih, buktikan

Saya cuma butuh pembuktian

Butuh kamu yakinin saya kalau,

"no matter how hard she chasing after you, your heart belongs to me"

Saya ga butuh omongan

Saya butuh tindakan

Karna tindakan jauh lebih berharga

Dan saya butuh kamu ngomong ke semua orang kalau cuma ada saya

Jakarta!

2011-06-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

Jadi, inilah hasil perburuan saya hari ini.
Akhirnya saya tau harus jawab apa setiap kamu nanya "mau pergi kemana?"
Saya mau pergi, keliling Jakarta.
Sama kamu.

Saya punya banyak tempat yang mau saya datengin.
Ga melulu tentang pantai.
Karna ternyata saya lebih tertarik pergi ke museum layang-layang sama kamu.
Kamu tau ga museum layang-layang?
Kalo engga, pergi sama saya yuk.

Saya punya segudang tempat yg mau saya datengin.
Tapi jangan anggep saya aneh ya.
Karna saya lebih tertarik pergi ke museum daripada ke mall.
Lebih tertarik ngeliat bintang di Taman Ismail Marzuki daripada nonton film di bioskop.
Lebih tertarik nyoba makanan pinggir jalan daripada restoran mahal.

Ah saya mah ga elit.
Saya cuma gasuka matahari siang.
Nanti tambah item dong.
Dan gasuka rambut saya berantakan.
Kamu tau kan?

Jadi kapan dong pergi sama saya?
Jangan lupa bawa kamera ya.
Nanti saya ajak keliling Jakarta.
Yang ternyata ga melulu tentang mall dan hedonista.

hey there, fat bear

2011-06-22T07:38:00.000-07:00

"Dulu kalau aku tak begitu, kini bagaimana aku?

Dulu kalau aku tak disitu, kini dimana aku?

Kini kalau aku begini, kelak bagaimana aku?

Kini kalau aku disini, kelak dimana aku?

Tak tau dulu atau kelak

Cuma tau kini aku begini

Cuma tau kini aku disini

Dan kini aku melihatmu."

- Summer in Seoul, Ilana Tan

(500) days of summer

2011-06-02T08:29:00.000-07:00

- (500) Days of Summer

"This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen, grew up believing that he’d never truly be happy until the day he met the one. The girl, Summer Finn, did not share this belief. You should know up front this is not a love story."

Summer: I love The Smiths.

Tom: [removing his headphones] Sorry?

Summer: I said I love The Smiths. You–you have a good taste in music.

Tom: You like The Smiths?

Summer: Yeah. “To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die.” I love ‘em.

[Summer steps off the elevator]

Tom: Holy shit.

Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.

.......

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

.......

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?

[she scoffs]

Tom: What?

Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?

Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.

Tom: It's official. I'm in love with Summer.

Tom: I love her smile. I love her hair. I love her knees. I love how she licks her lips before she talks. I love her heart-shaped birthmark on her neck. I love it when she sleeps.

.......

Tom: I love how she makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it.

"As he listened, Tom began to realize that these stories weren't routinely told. These were stories one had to earn. He could feel the wall coming down. He wondered if anyone else had made it this far. Which is why the next six words changed everything."

.......

Summer: I've never told anybody that before.

Tom: I guess I'm not just anybody.

Summer: You always wanted to write greeting cards?

Tom: No, I don’t even want to do it now.

Summer: Well you should do something else then.

Tom: Yeah. I studied to be an architect, actually.

Summer: You did that’s cool. What happened there?

Tom: Didn’t work out. I needed a job and here we are.

Tom: Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?

Tom: Nobody loves Ringo Starr.
Summer: That's what I love about him.

Tom: Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine. I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency.
Summer: I know.
Tom: I need to know that you're not gonna wake up in the morning and feel differently.
Summer: And I can't give you that. Nobody can.

Summer: We're just friends.
Tom: No! Don't pull that with me! Kissing in the copy room? Holding hands in IKEA? Shower sex? Come on! Friends my balls!

Tom: What happened? Why - why didn't they work out?
Summer: What always happens. Life.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom: Knew what?

Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

.......

Tom: You don't want to be named as anybody's girlfriend, and now you're someone's wife?

Summer: Well, you know, I guess it's 'cause I was sitting in a deli and reading Dorian Gray and a guy comes up to me and asks me about it and... now he's my husband.

Tom: Yeah. And... so?
Summer: So, what if I'd gone to the movies? What if I had gone somewhere else for lunch? What if I'd gotten there 10 minutes later? It was - it was meant to be. And... I just kept thinking... Tom was right.
Tom: No.
Summer: Yeah, I did.
[laughs]
Summer: I did. It just wasn't me that you were right about.

"Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin and they end with no lasting memory made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life."

Tom: [the girl at the job interview agrees to meet Tom for coffee afterward] We'll figure it out. My name's Tom.
Girl at Interview: [Last lines of the film] Nice to meet you.
[Shakes his hand]
Girl at interview: I'm Autumn.
[Tom looks at the camera in amazement. Film cuts to a title card with a "1" indicating the first day of Tom's relationship with Autumn]

- End

ah, it's kinda messed me up

2011-06-02T01:22:00.000-07:00

Loving you is the biggest risk I've ever take. Got a deep hurt all around my heart. I'm entering your heart and finally found something, someone. Then i ask, "who's that girl who standing right next to me and fill your heart too?". Realize something and with a hurry I close your heart's door again. So then I just can cry. And thinking about everything about us. I never be a player since we've start being together. I never did, then why don't you do the same?. A man can never love two women at the same time. Then why you can?

secondhand serenade's poem

2011-02-06T03:09:00.000-08:00

you had been mesed up my day for years. bring me up and down like i'm just a priceless. i only hope you hear me now. this is not a story about you & i. this is just mine, a twist in my story.

you are a drug since you come. you take me with you but then you just stay away. i remember your call for the first time. you're a stranger but it feels like i have known you since long.

you bring me laugh and cheer me up. maybe that's the reason why i fall for you. and when i fly higher and higher you make my world turns down into the deepest earth. i pretend to be a great liar the show the world that everything is alright. when the truth is i'm too vulnerable. it feels like i'm half alive when you're far away.

i remember about a song you like and we sang it together. i will never say i hate this song because i like everything you like. it could be the last song ever that i heard everytime i went to sleep. just for remind me that this story, my story and maybe yours too, it's not over. even when i just can look at you from the distance.

it's never be easy. i miss you too much. i never wish to get something more. all i ever ask you is to stay close, don't go. i'm too afraid if you say goodbye. and i never suppose to erase you.

once again i make my world. just like a movie, i let it roll. and every movie is have an end. wish it would be a happy ending for me...

p.s: put your attention, this is a secondhand serenade's poem. check their songs list and you'll find the bold words. happy hunting! :p

random thought

2011-02-04T02:15:00.001-08:00

This thought about future has come to my mind lately
The idea of being older, being grow up
10 years from now,
What would I be look like?
With who I would be?
Did I have married or not?
How much children?
How is my life would be?
And how about you?
What would you be look like?
Would it be the same as now or change?
Would be us meet again?
Would you still remember me?
With who you would be?
Am I know that girl?
Did you have married or not?
Did you have children?
And how is your life?
I'm 17th and you are 18th,
How if we meet when I'm 27th?
Or when I'm 22th?
I'm afraid when 27th everything's too late
Could we?
I'm gonna miss you for sure.

...

2010-11-23T02:03:00.001-08:00

I decided to close that old book.
Leave every part, every chapter, all the characters, and the memories.
Leave the joy, happiness, pain, and heartache.
That's over, really over.
I need rest from everything.

abstrak

2010-10-25T07:54:00.001-07:00

Terkadang Anda terlalu sarkatis dalam melihat dunia.
Dan terkadang sangat amat bijak dalam pemikiran.
Anda bisa menjadi orang paling baik sedunia dan pada detik berikutnya Anda berubah menjadi orang yang seenaknya.
Saya tidak mengerti Anda.
Anda abstrak, saya bilang.
Pikiran dan sifat yang tidak pernah sama setiap kali Saya bertemu Anda, itu abstrak.
Tapi ke-abstrak-an itu yang membuat Anda menarik.
Dan itu pula yang membuat Saya seperti layangan Anda.

Gimana? Gimana?? -_-

2010-10-12T22:56:00.003-07:00

Menurut temen saya, saya cuma cadangan kamu
Menurut temen saya, seharusnya saya gausah deket sama kamu lagi
Tapi,
Gimana saya bisa pergi kalo setiap kamu cerita selalu berhasil bikin saya ketawa? Gimana saya bisa lepas kalo setiap ada apa apa yg saya cari kamu?
Dan..
Gimana saya bisa lupa kalo di setiap doa saya ada kamu?

Sunshine after the rain

2010-10-09T04:41:00.000-07:00

"Sunshine After the Rain - Alexander"

Woke up this morning
Another brand new start
That' s our life
I jumped with every beat of my heart
When you came over
I could see something was wrong
It really isn't worth that you
just get to keep moving alone

You know that - I always be there

I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you‘re in need of a friend
`cause a shoulder to cry on
someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
But there's one thing I won't change

We known each other
Since I don't know how long
As long as I remember
You were always there
Singing along
There 's been some good times
And it's even been some sad
But we always somehow managed
To get something good
Out of the bad

Remember - I'll always be there

I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you‘re in need of a friend
`cause a shoulder to cry on
someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
But there‘s one thing I won't change

Some say that friends
will come and go
But this thing we have
will always grow
This (is weglassen ) one thing
I want show

I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you‘re in need of a friend
`cause a shoulder to cry on
someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
`cause there‘s one thing I won't change

i have searching the singer of this song since 6 months ago. and finally i know who's the singer when the night i had a phone call with... yeah i don't want to mention the name. he also likes this song as much as i am i think. this is a song from his ex hahaha.

i remember 6 months ago when i was in my down-est condition, suddenly i remember the refrain of this song. " i'll be your sunshine after the rain......". repeat and repeat again. i googled and also search it in youtube but i just found the up-beat version not the slow version. and i recommend you to listen to the slow one :)

you make me being a stupid

2010-09-26T05:09:00.003-07:00

Call me stupid, call me naive
I'm just start expecting too much again
You, somehow being important to me
Though i was felt like that before
And i remember it's not easy to make myself realize to not hoping
You make it again now
Put that laugh that jokes that voice in my head
Keep and lock it and rewind it again and again, make myself want to hear that again and again
You, somehow become addiction
That voice, i would do anything to hear that again
It's not too much but it is what i feel
I'm blind, i can't see that's a wrong
Huge wrong to let you fill my head like you was before
I was cried, once today
I don't know it can be that sad to hear your voice when i realize you don't even care
You asked what happened to me i said it's nothing
But then you made a joke made me laugh
It's simply like that you make me forget the fact that you such a womanizer

you're a mess, Aditya

2010-09-16T06:12:00.001-07:00

I've got a call today. From A. It's the 2nd call since he has a girlfriend again. The thing is, i just realize how can i be this happy when i heard my phone rang and it was him. The happy feeling i never felt when i got phone calls or messages from T. However A is already here when T just come into my life.
I got really happy, excited and wondered when i look my phone and there's a message from A. Maybe it's too much i'm happy with just get a message, but it is. We never communicate each other since he has a new girlfriend. He just gone. And then come back again. He always like that, come and go as his self want. I never can complain about this. I'm too afraid if he really gone.
And i just realize this afraid feeling even more i feel when A is gone than when T is gone. I cried when T say goodbye, but that's it. I never feel afraid about he-is-not-here-anymore. I just think he's gone so what's next? Yeah something like that. But A, he got me afraid without saying any goodbye thing. He makes my emotion up and down. He makes me happy just by have a call with. Something small but it has big effect for me.
Like today, it simply like this:
A: ehem
M: ehem jugaaa. ono opo mas?
A: dmn?
(i didn't reply yet, he text me again)
A: boleh tak telfon ga?
M: boleh silahkan
Just like that, and less from 1 minute my phone rang and he call.
I'm happy, for sure. But i don't know what i feel for him. He's a playboy and has a girlfriend. But he's a nice and really funny guy. I can't stop laughing if he call :)

2010-09-13T04:34:00.001-07:00

Kalo ada ramalan bintang yg bilang aries kesehatannya lagi baik, berarti ramalan itu SALAH BESAR
Kenapa?
Saya aries, tapi saya lagi sakit sekarang
Sakit pinggang -_-
Ga keren bener yah
Orang mah sakit pilek panas db tipes atau apa kek gitu yg bagusan
Ini ko saya sakit pinggang
Jadi berasa nenek nenek
Kata mama saya kurang minum makanya sakit
Yaiya sih wong saya sehari paling cuma minum segelas malah kadang2 ga minum
Trus ditambah kemaren saya ngedrop
Pilek, panas, kaki tangan dingin, tenggorokan sakit
Kata mama kalo saya udah kaya gtu berarti mau kena db
Fyi, saya kena db udah 2 kali -_-
Sampe trombosit saya dulu pernah tinggal 5000 hahaha
Tapi saya tetep bisa pecicilan padahal kata dokter trombosit segitu dikit lagi lewat -_-
Jadilah saya disuruh minum macem2
Kemaren saya ngabisin pocari 2liter, jus jambu yg kardus gede, indomilk yg kardus gede, sama bearbrand
Hasilnya? Alhamdulillah sembuh
Tapi saya harus bolak balik kamar mandi tiap 5menit sekali
Kebelet pipis!
Sakit pinggang saya juga ilang
Tapi kemaren doang huhu
Sekarang saya minumnya ga barbar lagi kaya kemaren, pinggangnya sakit lagi :(
Doain saya ya biar sembuh, nanti saya doain balik deh
Ditambah peluk cium dari saya biar tambah cepet sembuh :p

p.s : saya masih ngepost dari hp nih maafin yah kalo postingannya begenyeh -_-. makanya pasangin rumah saya internet dong! hahaha

random

2010-09-09T05:41:00.003-07:00

Hola! Udah lama yah saya ga nge post
Saya barusan abis ngeliat liat postingan saya yg dulu dulu
Kalo di liat liat lucu juga ya
Dulu saya cinta setengah mati (duileh cinte -_-) sama katakanlah si A
Trus ga brapa lama udah ganti jadi sama si B
Hahahahaha saya pengen ketawa jadinya
Manusia gampang banget berubah ya
Belum tentu yg dirasain hari ini bakal sama kaya yg dirasain besok
Tapi tenang aja B cinta saya ga berubah ko ke kamu -____-
Hahahaha becanda becanda
Tapi saya serius kalo saya bilang saya masih sayang kamu..
Ah udah udah nanti jadi galau hahaha

Well, internet rumah saya dicabut nih beberapa bulan terakhir ini
Tagihan listrik dan telfon rumah bengkak gara gara saya
Yaiyalah wong kalo main internet bisa dari pagi sampe pagi lagi
Dan itu bisa setiap hari lagi hahaha
Maaf yah pak, ma hehe cupmuah :p
Jadilah ini saya ngepost dari hp
Tangan saya keriting nih ngetik panjang banget huhu
Tapi gimana dong saya kangen ngeblog :D

Eh ngomong ngomong LIA saya hampir selesai loh hehe
Kemaren kemaren udah repot bikin essay sama presentasi
Nanti tinggal deg2an pas tesnya
Semoga lulus amiiiinnn
Ngomong ngomong lagi tentang LIA, kemaren saya kenalan sama si arab!!! Hihihi
Si arab yg mana? Yg ituloh yg udah sering liat liatan dari jaman hi 2 hahaha
Berkah ramadan deh tuh emang :p

Ramadan ya...
Besok lebaran loh...
Saya sih seneng besok dapet angpau
Tapi sedih deh karna udah ga ramadan lagi huhuhuhu

Bye ramadan,
See you next year yah
Tapi tahun depan saya udah di Bandung atau Jogja pas ketemu kamu
Amiiiiiinnn ya Allah

Happy ied, everyone
Forgive every mistakes i ever did yaa :D

well, this is me (based on quiz)

2010-08-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

to have yours, click this

i hate my life, lately

i am being an anti-social person

i have a lazyness in the highest level for my lessons

i have an "affair" with a boy who has a girlfriend, again

hufla!

tell me what happiness is...

2010-06-23T04:35:00.000-07:00

Madness as the time goes by will be fade
Unforgiven as the time goes by will be forgive
Hurt as the time goes by will be cure
And this is my very first time i pray for you after all that happened,
"god, please give him happiness, even that happiness is not with me"
I oftenly wondered it would be better if i never know you...

"our greatest happiness is found in the laughter, tears and joy we share with those we love" - Adele Basheev

"so this is my life. and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be" - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

"happiness is having what you want and wanting what you have" - Josh Bullings

"remember, happiness is a way of travel not a destination" - Roy Goodman

i'm waiting for someone like this...

?

2010-05-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

i'd turn on my computer, opened opera and start to browsing
i'd click my facebook bookmark and wrote my password
i'd check my notification and there's many photo tags
i'd open that photos and make a right click on my mouse
and then i'd choose 'save image'
automatically it'll be saved in my own folder
i made a look in my own folder
it fills with..
his photos
and all of print screen's chat from the first time we knew each other until that "goodbye" thing
i read it one by one
i found one thing sweet and another bad
i feel like... oh my god
i think i have to make a new folder of mine.

somehow i'm addicted with the rain...

2010-05-18T07:03:00.000-07:00

Can you help me out? Can you lend me a hand?
It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light
I just can't figure out how to make it right

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
With every tomorrow comes another life
I feel it's gonna rain for days and days, I feel it's gonna rain

I tried to figure out
I can understand what it means to be whole again
Trapped between the truth and the consequence
Nothing's real, nothing's making sense

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this, rain like this

Fall down, wash away my yesterdays
Fall down, so let the rain fall down on me

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
Let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, I feel it's gonna rain

rain - creed

Dido - white flag

2010-05-08T08:59:00.000-07:00

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

here to listen to this song, Dido - white flag

:'(

2010-05-08T05:53:00.000-07:00

this-is-the-first-time-i-really-hate-myself
because i realized that i'm still not over you
i hate when i really want to talk to you or chat you on facebook but i can't
i hate when i'm lying to myself
i hate this absurd feeling
but the most thing i hate is you
because you are a liar
and i know the truth

&#&&%$&$^Y#&%

2010-05-05T08:28:00.001-07:00

barusan, gue ditampar mama
oke terimakasih atas tamparannya ya mom
bahkan cuma gara gara hal sepele
tapi jadinya kaya gitu
sepele juga ko yang saya minta
anda menghargai saya
dan jangan pernah berpikiran negatif tentang saya jika anda ngga tau kebenarannya
nyatanya anda ngga tau saya
nyatanya bagi anda saya itu cuma yg jeleknya aja
lalu apa?
anda mau saya jadi bener bener jelek bukan cuma di mata anda?
maaf, saya belum terlalu bodoh buat jadi seperti itu
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya jadi anak baik buat anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan airmata saya di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan emosi di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan sakit hati sampe2 sakitnya terasa sampe ke ujung tangan?
mau anda saya jadi gimana?
anak yg kaya gimana?
bilang sama saya
dan tolong baik baik dibicarakannya kan bisa toh
ga perlu pake urat
atau menyepelekan
saya juga butuh rasa dihargai dari anda
dan satu yg mungkin anda lupa,
saya ini anak anda bukan boneka anda.

this is for you

2010-05-03T10:51:00.000-07:00

hey dude, i want to tell you a story
several days ago there's a boy who ask me to play "brother-sister"
i mean he ask me to be his sister
it's okay at the first
but later on he start to call me with "sayang"
i don't really mind until it start to bother me
he treat me like i am his grilfriend
he jealous with my bestfriend, he got angry if i'm not reply his messages
something like that
and he became more annoying
he said he likes me and loves me
the thing is he has a girlfriend!
and he push me to be his "girlfriend" and promise me that nobody know
i just said "it's too fast for you to say you loves me. you even don't know who am i"
but he push me again with say that he want me to let him loves me
i said "i don't want be that cruel to your girlfriend. i'm not the kind of wicked. i don't want to be wicked. i know what it's like to be a broken-hearted"
and then guess what? he mad at me
well i don't really care
so i decided to stay away
i don't want to broke their relationship
once again i don't want to be wicked with broke another person relationship.
he still messages me until now
but unfortunately i don't want to reply all of that
why? because he reminds me of you
the same mistake with you
and i almost be the girl who snatch him from his girlfriend
i don't want to be a kind of that person
i can imagine how hate his girlfriend with me if i snatch him from her side
i don't want it because i believe every good relationship start with a good thing too
if it start with a thing like that, how it be end up?
i know the end, one of them will left the couple for another one, again
it's futile.
but the good thing is, dude
it's happy to know that another people relatonship is still nice until now
i don't broke that
and nobody's hurt

may would be nice :D

2010-05-02T02:15:00.000-07:00

thanks god, i'm right on my way to go to my rainbow

suddenly, i miss you

2010-04-29T05:05:00.000-07:00

today, our memories is just like rewind

i still can remember all of that clearly in my head

like an old video that still in a good condition

how we first met,

every journey,

every yells,

every lies,

every sweet things,

your smile,

everything.

the pain, i still feel it

unfortunately always success to make me cry.

it's been a long time since the last time we communicate

but your words is still in my head

remember the way you yell at me and say that harsh words?

that's why i still can't open my heart for another one.

not because there's still you

it's simply because i'm not that suitable

you don't know what you do

you don't know what the effects

but, thankyou for being like that

i'm happy to ever meet you

I just want to stay together with you to...

2010-04-25T01:54:00.001-07:00

to listen and share,

to make all be better,

to stand up with,

and to be a spirit...

that's all~

It's not that easy to let you go,

2010-04-22T04:44:00.001-07:00

But the good thing is, i have moved on

Some people said,
"don't ever cry for someone who left you for someone else"
Another said,
"sometimes people leave because they really want to stay"

I said,
"it's fine if you want to cry because i know what is like to be a broken-hearted. But don't ever let them to make you drown too deep. Get up and change your world. Be reallistic, because you're not living on a dream"

10 things i love most

2010-04-14T07:35:00.000-07:00

1. Hot air balloon

like this one, the classic type. with stripes and bright colour. lovely.

2. Rainbow

the rainbow will come after the rain, with bright colours in it. the good things will always come after the bad

3. Thunderstrom

wish i have a great power as a thunderstrom have

4. Candy

like this one, a circle. with bright colour and sweet taste. longlasting.

5. Stars

hey stars, i wish i could be...........

6. Barbie

the inspiration, the role model, the beautiful and the perfect one

7. Sky

above the sky there's still a sky

8. Jogja

i love this town very much. the people, the food, the weather, the crowd. a lot of unique things on it

9. Night

i always love the crowd of the nights on Jakarta

10. The lamps along the highway on night

i love it so much. when you are on the highway in the night there's many lamps along the way. for me, it's a comfortable thing

birthday girl :D

2010-04-12T07:49:00.000-07:00

  
Happy sweet 17th birthday,
Malinda Dinna Auliya

06 - 04 - 2010

Keep rockin and have a great 17 years old!

-birthday girl :*

quick update, everyone :p

2010-04-04T21:10:00.001-07:00

Well finally I can write again
The internet connection in my house has been broken since last week or 2 weeks ago.
Annoying. Grrr

Just quick update,
Someone had changed my facebook account's password and then deactivating that
Well I don't want to blame anyone even just one boy who know my password
A little bit annoying, really
But don't worry,
I have fixed that
And my facebook account officially reactivate again
So, poor you

pencerahan? hahaha :D

2010-03-22T06:30:00.001-07:00

today, i realized something. that this life is not only about always being a kid. we grow up and grow up not only getting older.
makin gede, makin banyak yang dipikirin. masa depan, bentuknya kayak apa ya? gimana gue nanti kalo udah gede?
hidup bukan cuma buat seneng seneng. bukan cuma buat ngegaul sana sini. bukan cuma buat mikir mau jadi apa gede nanti. harus ada yg diubah, perubahan. harus berani ngambil langkah. tapi bukan berarti hidup harus selalu dibawa susah. bukan berarti hidup gaboleh ada senengnya. semuanya mesti seimbang. play hard work hard.
bapak bilang ga masalah dia mau kerja keras kayak apa asal anaknya bisa sekolah, bisa berhasil melebihi dia. bapak bilang dia mau gue jadi dokter baru sampingannya bisnis. dan gatau kenapa kata-katanya jadi semangat buat gue. gue emang dari awal gaada niat buat jadi dokter dan emang sekarang niat ke bisnis. tapi yang gue tau gue harus bisa bikin bapak bangga harus bisa bikin usaha bapak selama ini buat gue ga sia sia.
banyak masalah akhir akhir ini. nuntut gue buat mikir dewasa. yg gue sadarin gue emang belum cukup dewasa. gue emang belum bisa nyelesaiin masalah dengan baik. tapi yang gue tau bukan dengan sok dewasa kita bisa nyelesain masalah.
semua ada jalannya. kalo kita gagal di satu jalan masih banyak jalan yang lainnya. kalo kita gabisa di satu jalan kita bisa di jalan lain. banyak jalan menuju roma kan? jadi buat apa kita ngoyo mesti jadi ini mesti itu padahal masih banyak cara lain buat nyampe ke tujuan yg sama.
beberapa bulan terakhir gue banyak belajar. belajar jadi lebih dewasa, belajar menganalisis kepribadian orang, belajar menghargai, dan belajar mengerti orang. i learn about being alone without being lonely and about being lonely without losing my mind. semua ada jalannya. yg kita bisa selain berusaha ya cuma pasrah sama Allah. dia tau yg terbaik buat kita.
gue juga belajar kalo sesuatu yg kita pengen belum tentu sesuatu yg kita butuh. dan gue sangat sangat sadar akan hal itu sekarang. gue pengen elo tapi gue sadar gue ga butuh butuh elo banget. masih banyak orang disini yg lebih gue butuhin. jadi kenapa mesti ngoyo. setiap pertemuan pasti ada akhirnya kan? dan mungkin disinilah akhirnya. who know kalo kita bakal ketemu lagi. 5 tahun lagi? atau 10 tahun lagi? tapi yg gue tau gue mau pas gue ketemu lo, lo bakal liat gue adalah orang yg berbeda. gue bukan lagi malinda yg sekarang yg masih anak kecil. gue mau lo liat gue udah jadi orang dewasa berpendidikan dan sukses. dan pantas.
udah gede semuanya harus serba dipikirin. dikit lagi juga gue 17 tahun. ga terasa ya. udah harus tambah dewasa. harus bisa banggain orang tua. mulai semuanya dengan yg baru. lupain yg lama. harus jadi pribadi yg baru. gue bisa, pasti bisa.
orang baik bakal dibales baik. jadi kenapa engga kita usaha baik sama semua orang. semuanya ada balesannya ko. live righteously aja dengan sendirinya everything will be alright :)

i love this song. inspiring :)
maliq n d'essentials - buka mata, hati, telinga

here is the lyric :)

Satu cerita tentang manusia
Coba 'tuk memahami arti cinta
Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya

Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya
Yang kita harap mampu mewujudkan sebuah akhir bahagia

Buka mata hati telinga
Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta ooo..
Yang kau inginkan tak selalu
Yang kau butuhkan mungkin memang yang paling penting
Cobalah untuk membuka mata hati telinga

Adakah kau rasakan kadang hati dan fikiran
Tak selalu sejalan seperti yang kau harapkan
Tuhan tolong tunjukkan apa yang 'kan datang
Hikmah dari semua misteri yang tak terpecahkan

Buka mata hati telinga
Buka mata hati telinga
Coba kau buka mata hati telinga
Mata hati telinga

lately, there's so much smile and laugh around me. helps me to be better and better. i love you world :D

?

2010-03-20T00:59:00.000-07:00

sometimes when you take a look to someone you can see that she's ok, but come closer, if you see deep down to her eyes don't you still think that she's ok?
i'm a master in make a fake
why?
i just don't want you to know who am i
what i think, what i feel
because not every problem can share it to you
because the real is i'm not that extrovert
because there's a fun thing to make you guess the real me
wtf
live a simple life, i wish
open your eyes
you'll se there's something more important to concern about
not just love
but why love always success to make you fall?
in every way, you do it with love
you do it with all of your heart
so when this heart has broken, who will responsible?
can you tell me what happiness is?
like a dream, i feel it when i fall asleep
but when i wake up?
i don't know where is it going
can you show me the way to go there?
i'm getting a little bit tired to through this

-,-

2010-02-20T20:36:00.000-08:00

kemaren atau berapa hari yang lalu ada percakapan di rumah gue yang super annoying banget deh atau lebih tepatnya kaka gue yang annoying grrr.

gue : " mom, inda nanti mau jadi pramugari aja deh. lulus sma langsung masuk sekolah pramugari. nanti kerjanya enak trus.......... (bla bla bla sampe panjang lebar gue ngomong)"

(kaka gue tiba tiba nyamber)

kaka gue : " hahaha (ketawa ngejek) mau jadi pramugari? ga salah? lo udah jelek, item, pendek, gendut mana bisa jadi pramugari hahaha"

gue : (dokem gabisa ngomong apa apa zz)

segitu jeleknyakah gue?????????? hhhhhhhhh

baby, i want to ask you

2010-02-19T07:24:00.000-08:00

i already do what you want me to.

so, what else?

sooooooooo what's going on?

2010-02-16T05:37:00.000-08:00

well, if you ask me what i'm feeling, surely i'm sad but i'm not broken. i'm not hurt, i just get a little dissapointed.

because of what you did to me, i realized that many friends of mine are loved me. and i know their love will help me to be stronger.

i still crying and miss you, and wish you were here. i keep on asking "when you'll come to me and explain what happened to us in front of my face?"

i don't know what is your answer, but.. you know what, the sky is still blue without you

this week song, everyone. i'm listening to hot air balloon - owl city . it's totally cool!!!!!!!

even i asked one of my friend to painted it for me. he made one big balloon with a girl inside, he said it was me! with blue sky and another little balloon around. it's a nice picture, i though. and i dream to have a balloon one day wihihihihi.

okaaaay i'm tired. see you later. wish everything will be alright ya! xoxo :D

i love you :(

2010-02-12T23:42:00.001-08:00

one day, when it is all over and everything back fine again and you still remember me, come and call me, and i will say,

"welcome back, dear. i love you"

rain

2010-02-06T03:02:00.000-08:00

i love rain

with the storm

the cold

the wet

and the rainbow after it

someone will come after that rain

bring me the rainbow

the flowers

the sun

pick me up and say

rain will always stop and rainbow will come

don't sad

cause even in your hardest day

there's always a good thing after it

dream on

2010-02-05T01:49:00.000-08:00

lately, i like to sing this song. romantic. makes me wish someday there is someone who will sing this for me :)
here it is, hellogoodbye - oh it is love

Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes upon yours
Thinking oh, is it love?

Oh dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh, dear, it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips onto yours
Thinking oh is it love?

and if you don't mind to listen this song, please check this to hear this song

life is like a roller-coaster this week

people get annoyed

and i had a crowd in my head

fell asleep with tears

and woke up in the middle of night because of nightmare

no one i can talk with

even i want to

i need arms to hold, now

and please don't ask about what happened

just give me a big hug

it's more than enough

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

2010-01-02T11:58:00.000-08:00

resolution for 2010:
1. must have items: appearance, brain, social
2. being a good girl
3. FREEDOM

tahun 2010 pokonya udah niat mau jadi anak baik baik. ga ada pulang malem, ga ada asep asep gajelas, nilai mesti naik, mesti jadi anak ipa beneran (beneran maksudnya yaa you know lah kan ya tipe tipe anak ipa yang doyan belajar, oh my god!), mesti jadi anak rajin dan berbakti pada orangtua deh pokonya. hhhhh bisa pasti bisa -_-

taun baru kemaren i went to Serang,Banten. yaampun beneran deh disana ga ada apa apa. bahkan Circle K pun gaada! yaampuuuun. sampe sampe gue homesick disana kangen Jakarta padahal disana juga cuma sehari! ckckck hebatnya Jakarta ye kan hahaha.
pas jalan pulang lewat tol malem malem kan. ngeliat lampu lampu jalan. inget tito. kangeeeeeeeeeeeennnn banget. kapan bisa ketemu ya? hahahaha. rasanya udah pengen ke tebet ke rumahnya pengen ketemu. hahahaha nekat gue kalo sampe kaya gitu.
dan sekarang orangnya lagi marah deh sama gue. hem hem gatau kenapa gue selalu takut setiap dia marah. gue selalu merasa bersalah setiap gue gabisa ngerti dia setiap gue egois ke dia setiap gue bikin dia marah. dia gitu juga ga ya ke gue? hahahaha gapenting mikirin perasaan gue yang penting itu dia titik gapake koma

oke new year, new me. hope everything will be better than last year. i love you world, i love you tito

:|

2009-12-28T03:20:00.000-08:00

i know i'm not good enough,
i know i'm not special,
but you are good enough,
but you are special.

your world

2009-12-25T05:17:00.000-08:00

if i'm the one that you are choose, then why it's so hard for me to be a part in your world?

your world is like a place that i can't go there. too much different on it with mine. then why i still here to you?

i have no bravery to say this

2009-11-26T22:44:00.000-08:00

it's simply like when you were right and then she blamed you

she said you are a bad girl when you tried to be a good girl

and then guess what,

you decided to be a real bad girl.

ask to her:

can you appreciate me?

say thanks to me?

proud of me?

being a good girl is never easy

i do try, for you

good in every aspect in my life

maybe, it's still not enough

but be calm, i have so much work to do to fix that

and then please realize that i am a good girl

i love you

i'll do anything, mom

for what happened few days ago

2009-11-08T05:27:00.000-08:00

:)

2009-10-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

nothing need to scared, tito.

i'm here

will never go away

as my promise to you

i will wait

as long as you want

don't be afraid

it's not your fault and not me

it's all because

you and me

fell in love

not in the right time and the right condition

be calm

i don't want to disturb you

be focus

faster is better

you and me

like a balloon

you want me to keep this balloon

so it will never go

i want you to hold this balloon

because it's too weak if you just keep it

don't let this balloon fly away

she need your hands to catch her

she need your arms to hold her

she need a man to protect her

don't be scared

i will go no where

everytime you need me

i'm here

Saturday, 17-10-2009

2009-10-18T06:11:00.000-07:00

hari sabtu aku jalan lagi loooooh sama mas tito hihihi,

dia nyampe rumah jam 8 kurang seperempat padahal gue baru bangun jam 8 kurang 20 -_- yaudah itu orang nunggu deh sampe jam 9an hahahaha maaf yaaa. trus abis itu nyokap berisiiiik banget minta dikenalin sama tito. yaudah deh akhirnya si tito turun dulu trus salim baru kita jalan hahaha dasar emak emak emang centil ih.

terus udah di jalan nih udah di tol kan gue laper ya ditanyain mau makan apa. gue bilang gue ngidam bubur ayam hahahaha udah kaya orang hamil ye. trus yaudah akhirnya kita keluar tol nyari tukang bubur hahaha sumpah itu ngabis ngabisin duit buat tol aja ya. bingung kan tuh di jalan nyari tukang bubur dimana yaudah kita ke sunan giri deh. muter muteeeeerrr salah jalan lewat utan kayu utara akhirnya sampe deh di sunan giri (perasaan kalo jalan sama kamu kita muter muter nyari jalan mulu ya to hahahaha)

udah makan segala macem udah jam sebelas kan tuh bingung juga mau kmana trus si tito ngajak ke moi mau nonton cloudy with a chance of meatball haha bagus to filmnya like this deeeh beneran hihi (yaah secara i love cartoon so much!). nonton 3D kan ya tiketnya mahal deh 70ribu zzzzzzzzzz. udah deeeeh nonton deh kitaaaa. sedikit norak sih tapi baru sekali itu gue nonton 3D di bioskop wehehehehe

abis nonton selesai jam 3 tapi kita di parkiran dulu udah kaya apatau ya di mobil sampe jam 5 ckck. baru deh pulang soalnya takut kemaleman nih si mas titonya nanti dicariin hihihi (ko jadi kaya anak mami ya kamu? haha). sampe deket rumah mampir dulu ke indomaret gara gara maagnya dia kambuh. udah tuh beli beli trus dia minum obat trus belom pergi kan dari situ masih di mobil eeeeeehhhh tau tau dari yang tadinya teraaaaaang (kita parkir dibawah lampu) jadi gelap semuanya. knapa? mati lampu satu komplek gue hahaha. yaudah trus gajadi pulang deh. kita di mobil deh nungguin nyala lagi lampunya (akhirnya jadi macar juga kita ye bos malem minggu wehehehe)

teruuuuuus janji kelingking lagi. mas tito bilang dia takut gue pergi. hahahaha tenang mas emang aku mau pergi kemana deh. dia bilang dia kesangkut sama gue kepelet beneran hahaha. bagus bagus brarti ga siasia gue pasang pelet sepuluh ye ga hahaha. tenang aja kan aku udah janji nunggu ya aku nunggu lah. tepatin dulu tuh janji sama ibu. baru deh bisa ada... ehem status hahahaha. serius ga sabar nunggunya

kalo beneran bisa jadi guling jadi guling deh gue biar bisa dibawa pulang hahahahaha. kangen kamu to. beneran deh rasanya ga cukup kalo cuma sminggu skali ketemunya heeeeemmm

ancol, Sunday 11-10-2009

2009-10-12T09:07:00.000-07:00

halooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

akhirnya bisa online lagi. brapa hari ya internet gue rusak. aneh lagi rusaknya. masa buka wlm bisa tapi buka facebook dan lainlainnya gabisa. apa maunya coba deeeeh -____-

hari minggu kemaren akhirnya gue ketemu tito hihi. seneng deh ah. tito jemput kerumah jam 10 trus kita jalan jalan

tito: nda kita mau kemana nih?
gue: kemana ya to terserah kamu deh
tito: yeh gimana sih. mau kemana nih?
gue: heeeemm.....
tito: kemana dul?
gue: ancol!
tito: dih mau ngapain ke ancol?
gue: beli layangan! hehehehe
tito: yee dasar bocah kamu. serius?
gue: iyaaaaaaaa hehehe
tito: yaudah yuuuuuk deh

laluuuuuu jalan lah kita ke ancol. di jalan pas udah di daerah pancoran gue minta kesekolahnya dulu di SMA 78. yaudah akhirnya kita keluar tol terus luruuuus belok kanan lurus lagi terus lupa jalannya -_- akhirnya sampe deh disekolahnyaaaa. masa ya itu sekolah gede banget deh. berapa kalinya 71 tau dah iiiiih.

terus abis dari sekolahnya kita masuk tol lagi sampeeeeeee ancol.di ancol muter muter bingung mau ngapain. akhirnya parkir di deket gelanggang samudra. dan karna niat gue ke ancol emang cuma mau beli layangan, kita di mobil doang deh dari jam 12an sampe jam brapa tebaaaaaaaak? yak sampe jam 6an sore hahahahaha.

di mobil udah kaya orang goblok kan. becanda segala macem diomongin. dari yang gapenting sampe yang penting hehehe. ngerjain tes psikotesnya dia. ngutak ngatik hp dia. ga kerasa banget deh tiba tiba udah sore hahaha.

cerita yang paling gue inget tuh pas dia cerita dia nembak cewek. sumpah ini cowok emang romantis apa kelewat baik gue gatau ya hahaha. masa nembak cewek aja dia sampe nyewa satu restoran di sky dinning, dan dibikin jadi candle light dinner! lampu restoran dibikin jadi gelap gitu trus ada lilin sama bunga. yaampuuuun langsung speechless deh itu dengernya. NGIRI!!! hahahahaha.

dan akhirnya dia bilang, "kamu tungguin aku ya, aku sayang kamu"
heeeeeeeeeeeeeemmmm iyalah aku nunggu kamu. orang aku juga sayang ko hihi kali ini serius, aku gamau main main lagi

2009-10-08T09:24:00.000-07:00

i just need you to say,

"yes, i want you to wait for me"

and then i'll wait as long as you want

well, ini yang gue lakuin kalo disekolah. ngecek hp setiap 5 menit sekali. ada sms dari dia apa engga. udah kaya apatau ya hahaha. untungnya ga bener bener lost contact. jadi gue ga seratus persen kaya orang bego. udah di sekolah kerjaannya diem (pik), di tempat les juga diem (pik lagi) hahahaha. kelamaan lu vakumnya -_-

mas tito, cepet balik dong aku kangen

-bos kecil

2009-10-07T08:31:00.000-07:00

"Janarto Wicaksono"

hem jowo banget ya namanya hahahahaha. orangnya tingginya setinggi gue tinggian dikit (hihi), rambutnya rada gondrong, pake beheeeeel warna biru, item manis, pinteeeeeeeeeeerrr banget (dia anak ipa, ipa beneran, bukan ipa gadungan hehe), baik banget, dewasa banget, punya lesung pipi juga hehehe.

ih kangen banget sama kamuuuuuuu mas tito :(

dan sekarang gue bakal ditinggal sama dia kira kira 3 sampe 4 bulan -____________-

okedeh selamat belajar ya mas tito. semoga msuk itb hahaha. 3 bulan lagi inget balik ke gue ya awas lo kalo engga ntar gue cubit hahahahaha (eh ini serius loh mas tito).

-bos kecil

chit chat

2009-10-03T09:42:00.000-07:00

hola people! nice to meet you again. it's been about three or four days since the last post i wrote. something happened with my account in facebook for last three days. someone change the password and remove some of my friends. including my ex. then as you guess, he was going mad. unfortunately until now. besides i was said the truth in the name of Allah, my lord, he still not believed in me. it makes me soooo lazy to turn on my computer and write something.

but my facebook was repaired and it back as usual, thanks for tito who repaired this.

on tuesday, i met tito for the first time. he's a nice boy like i thought. enough funny as we were at the first met. and then what else? yes, now he is a little bit in the bad mood. it makes me in the bad mood too -_-

hell done, see ya!

p.s i will tell you about tito on the next post!

ugly - sugababes

2009-09-26T21:57:00.000-07:00

"people are all the same, if i'm ugly then so are you"

sugababes - ugly

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLrFOmAbCMs&feature=PlayList&p=4FFC6C133FA628B9&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=6

HAHA

2009-09-26T11:48:00.000-07:00

you said i am a BITCH

thankyou,

at least i know who i am in your eyes.

and that's enough to show how deep you hate me

but maybe it isn't a hate but it is a hurt

same like you i am hurt too

love letter?

2009-09-24T03:14:00.000-07:00

we were done.

and you ask me to leave you.

you said you will be far away from me,

until you 're not wished to back with me anymore.

you said it's hard for you.

you said you can't stay near.

you said you're afraid.

but you never asked me,

what i feel,

what i want.

i'm sorry for everything.

for every second that you wasted with me.

for every hugs and kisses.

for every love that you give to me.

remember your promise, boy.

oneday i will ask you for it.

because this way is all what you want.

and i just can follow you.

i'll wait your promise

for sure, for always.

ngung ngung bingung

2009-09-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

kemarin mantan pacar saya bilang

" kamu berubah, ga perhatian kaya dulu lagi "

lalu saya bilang

" apasih engga ko biasa aja "

dan dia bilang

" iya kamu berubah sejak kamu deket sama cowok cowok itu "

-__________________________________-

jreng jreng keram saya gabisa bales omongannya dia

yang saya bingung semua orang bisa berubah toh?

lalu apa yang salah dengan saya?

ga salah kan kalo nambah temen?

punya banyak temen?

trus apa?

hemmm gini nih kalo punya hubungan ga ada statusnya

apa apa dibikin repot

mau deket sama si ini, mantan jeles

mau deket sama si itu, mantan gasuka

terus gimana?

ya nasib

makanya jauhin dulu tuh mantan

gabisa ngejauh?

hmmm bingung juga ya

kalo orang pacaran sih saya bakal bilang

" selingkuh aja "

masalahnya kan ini ga pacaran

trus saya harus bilang apa dong?

hubungan begini banyak sakit atinya

dikit dikit berantem

dikit dikit nangis

jadi gimana dong?

ya makanya cari hubungan tuh yang jelas jelas aja

hhhhhhh -_-

xoxo md

audisi dance SALZEUS (part 2)

2009-04-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

heeeeey guys! btw about my audition, SUKSES besaaaar yeehaaa! finally, gue d terima d dance. yah sbnrny sih smua yg ikut audisi pasti dterima -__-. tapi its oke lah. bangga juga gue dikit. mengingat malunya pas audisi. d liatin kelas 11. gaya gue ancur beneeeer dah. udah gt pas free style ohmygod bgt deh gaya gue sampah bgt eww. hahaha tapi okelaaaah yg penting masuk. hip hip horraaaaay!

audisi dance SALZEUS (part 1)

2009-04-03T23:01:00.000-07:00

hari ini jam 8 pagi udah sampe d gedung senam buat audisi dance bareng vena. sampe sana uda ada safira yg ternyata uda nunggu dr jm stg 8. eeh uda capek"naik turun angkot. yg lain lamaaaaaaaaa bgt dtgnya. baru pd dtg sktr jm stg 10. abis itu langsunglah kta mesen tempat. trus mulai latihannya. gerakan gue super aneeeeh. malu deh. kata si kaka powernya kurang. tapi bgung deh power it yg kaya gmana. soalnya tangan gue uda pada sakit smua. trus mana nih si pelatih? jreng jreng jreng ternyata gajadi dateng. hadaaaaah. yaudah pulang deh kita zz
kesimpulan: gajadi audisi. jadinya rabu d skolah d tonton 3 angkatan! ohmygod

you! idiot!

2009-04-02T05:59:00.001-07:00

it's so hard to forget you ya. walaupun gue udah berusaha sekeras mungkin. janji k orang"bakal lupain lo. tapi apa nyatanya mungkin gue emang munafik atau emang lo yg terlalu kuat nempel d pikiran gue. gatau lagi deh harus gmana. scara posisi lo skarang yah udah taken. dan gue tau amat sangat tau kalo lo sayang banget sama dia. haha bego gue

hello fellas!! :D

2009-03-06T04:44:00.000-08:00

hello fellas!

this is my first post hahahaha. please enjoy my blog. later i will be write more more and more. so keep on the track guys! :D